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Whenever I look at you,
a guilty love gets in the way.
And even though you should go,
I wish my hardest for you to stay.
If she wasn't my friend it would be fine,
but I can't take the easy way home.
My body keeps a good distance,
but I can't help to let my mind roam.
Just to know he's watching makes me quiver,
when our arms touch I make myself go.
Space between us kills me every moment,
I just wish that I could let him know.
It's been so long that I've hidden,
and it's been so long holding his heart.
Picking up all his broken pieces,
and putting back together part by part.
Always thinking about him,
wondering who he's thinking about.
A wonderful fright comes to mind,
and I wish I could let this all out.
Stay in my room all day,
waiting for our next step in youth.
For whatever life throws at us next,
as we fake and figure the truth.
Your the hope deep in my soul,
and the love song in my ears.
Your the day dreams I continuously have,
and the strength to push away fears.
I think about what she would think,
how and if she'd ever feel the same.
But if I went and opened my mouth,
there would only be one person to blame.
This journey keeps on getting harder,
every time another question plays.
If and when we heal from this,
it could take years or days.
Wondering what's going to happen,
and if you'll be there in my path.
In the back of my mind of everything,
I love you it's not hard math.
The hard part is socially recognized,
and sometimes it's just hurts to smile.
But thinking of you drowns it out,
even if it lasts for the while.
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