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I stand in a crowd of detached, unconcerned, disinterested, and free minds. I'm shrieking an ear-piercing, ear-splitting, and shattering cry. HELP!!! HELP ME!!!! RELIEVE ME, ALLIVIATE THIS PAIN!!!!! SOMEONE STOP THIS ACHING!!!
But no one sees me nor hears me. They walk their paths unhindered by my screams of sorrow, desperation, and agony. My screams of surrender, anguish, and confusion. I slowly lower my voice and drop to my knees with my head in my hands. Tears seeping through clammy fingers and dripping down to my lips as these detached, unconcerned, disinterested, and free minds walk their paths unhindered by my heartbreak lingering through the air.
I know what I have to do is stay down and drown myself in a puddle of salty tears from my eyes, snot running from my nose, and blood pouring from my wrists'¦. Or stand up with my head up high, full of pride, dignity, and gratification surging from my heart to my mind.
But what is the determining factor to facilitate an end to the greatest struggle, battle, and fight from darkness. That has had such a restraint, grasp, hold, and imprisoned my love for life all my adolescent years.
How will I decide when each choice is another challenge I am not sure my deteriorating heart can handle.
So I stand here screaming in this purgatory, this limbo, and state of uncertainty hoping a head will turn my way and quiet my cries.
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