My Life in Dispare

I try to make the pain go away but it never does
everyday it is the same i live my life in dispare
i try to make it better but every time i do i just
fail i try to make myself look good every day
but is seems as if i never can the kids always fine
something wrong with what i do I can't look at myself in the mirror
A monster looks back at me
I close my eyes to escape the furor
In the back of my mind darkness is all I see

I never was true to myself
All the lies I live collect dust on the shelf
I will live with these faults and drown away the sorrow
Another day with a hit to forget tomorrow.

~Akiera~